Writing something with meaning, and not something that is junk

Well, after some more study, I have found that you can't just start randomly trying to right a story and expect to get one that has any sort of literary value. If you don't plan your story out, it probably won't have any commercial value either. So, I have decided I am pretty much just going to scrap my previous story for now. And I am going to try to write something with purpose, trying to explore some aspect in human nature, to teach the reader something. When I figure out what this is, I will write a detailed outline. I have always been bad with outlines, I always want to just write, and figure out what I am going to say as I go along. This actually creates a whole lot more work, than if I had just gone ahead and wrote the outline. Not to mention the fact that whatever I had been writing probably will sound like a rambling poorly structured and unfocused work.

Here is what I think I am going to attempt to write on, which is also something I have been considering a lot lately. The hopelessness of trusting in yourself, in your career, or in anything else so superficial, to bring you joy. It requires a whole lot more than money, or your family even, to bring true happiness. Of course I would need to be able to show this, without directly stating this in the story. Using things like symbolism, irony, ect. to show this to the reader.